The Day it all Began

I don't really know what to say about today..
I was actually holding up pretty well, delightfully oblivious to what today is. I know that people would say it's silly and stupid for me to 'dwell' on things this way. Why not just forget all these stupid dates? I'd like to. Like I said, I made it through half my day without even realizing it! I am at least proud of myself for that. But apparently today is said to be 'the most depressing day in history'.. I read that and then I thought about it. Go figure, right?
I wish I could have been there.
I wish I could have stopped him.
I wish I knew exactly what happened.
What they said to each other, what they did together.. how exactly they managed to go from two married people who were reconnecting and reminiscing at a mutual friend's wedding to two people having an affair.
I wish I didn't feel so alone right now.